I wrote this after losing almost 100 pounds. I couldn't believe the physical changes in my body and health! Aside from the scale, I observed the following:
- I used to have to hold my breath to bend over and tie my shoes. I even avoided shoes that had to be tied, for this reason. Now, I don't even think twice about bending over, and it certainly doesn't make me lose my breath.
- I used to sit down very slowly into a chair, for fear of breaking it. I exceeded the weight limit of most lawn chairs. I used to have a nice leather couch, and one day when I sat down too hard, I heard the wood break. Now, I know that if I break a chair, it wasn't MY fault--it was a faulty chair!
- I used to feel very shameful buying candy or junk food because of what people would think. Now, I feel just as entitled as everyone else to buy junk, and I don't feel like people are staring at me thinking how fat I am.
- I used to have a large open gap in my bath towel when I wrapped it around me--it just wouldn't go all the way around. Now, I can wrap it around me and overlap it with comfort.
- Sex is TOTALLY different... in a good way!
- I never used to be able to curl my legs up underneath me, or sit Indian-style or cross-legged. Now, I can do all of that with ease. I even sat Indian-style on my chair at the movie theater!
- It took me a while to figure out why I had bruises just inside of each of my knees... I discovered it was because my knees can actually TOUCH each other now! When I sleep on my side, the bones press together and that's how I got the bruises.
- I used to have to take breaks while blow-drying my hair, because my arms got sore from holding them up for more than a minute or two at a time. Now, I can blow-dry my whole head and never feel achy.
- I can paint my toenails now! I used to not be able to bend over long enough to paint them.
- I can take off my wedding rings now! They were stuck on my finger for more than 5 years.
- When I go shopping, I don't automatically look for the largest size clothes and see if there is something I like. I look for clothes I LIKE first, then I look to see if it's in my size.
- I don't feel horrified when I see pictures of myself. In the past, I HATED getting my picture taken, and now I kind of like it.
- I used to snore and have sleep apnea, and now I sleep quietly and soundly :)
- When I went to the doctor, they used to have to get out a larger-size blood pressure cuff to fit around my arm. Now, I can use the regular cuff just fine.
- I used to be hot all the time... even when everyone else was freezing. Now, I'm always cold.
- In group photos, I always used to stand in the back, trying to hide behind everyone. Now, I enjoy being in front.
- I received a gift certificate for a massage two Christmases ago. I waited almost until it expired t use it, because I was embarrassed. Finally, I went to use it, and the spa robe wouldn't fit around me. I was horrified. Now, I KNOW I could fit into the robe.
- When I go for walks, I love to see my shadow now--I can actually see nice curves in the right places.
- I used to avoid hugging people because I didn't want them to feel my fat. Now, I enjoy hugging people.
- I used to get winded just walking around my house. Now, I run three times a week, anywhere from 2-5 miles.
- I once drank corn syrup right out of the bottle because I had such a strong sweet craving and we didn't have anything sweet in the house. Now, I can eat just about anything without added sugar (or sweetener). My sweet tooth is very sensitive now :)
- I used to sweat just SITTING, and it was horribly embarrassing. Now, I love that I get super sweaty on my runs (and that I don't sweat unless I'm exercising).
- When I hold up a pair of jeans, I think, "There is NO WAY I can fit into those! They're so small!" But then I try them on, and they FIT.
- When my older son Noah was learning to ride a two-wheeler, I sat in a lawn chair and my sister ran along side the bike, because I couldn't do that. When it was my younger son Eli's turn to learn, I ran up and down the street with his bike over and over again. It was ME that taught him!
- I asked the man working at a liquor store if he sold any other beer that was under 70 calories per bottle. He looked at me and said, "You don't need to worry about calories!" This meant a lot to me because he didn't KNOW about my weight loss. He only talked to me for a moment and assumed I was a thin person.
- I used to worry about sharing a hotel room with other people, because I snored so loudly. Now, I don't snore at all and I'm more than happy to share a room.
- I never thought that FEET could be fat, but they, too, went down a whole size.
- Some girls have told me to stop losing, because I'll be TOO skinny... you know that means they only view me as competition! ;)
- I've developed a whole new set of taste buds... I used to hate fish, and now it's part of my regular menu. I think certain foods are "too sweet" now. I love garbanzo beans! And OATMEAL. My goodness, I could eat oats for breakfast, lunch, and dinner.
- I used to head straight for the Women's section of department stores. Now, I can shop Misses or even Juniors.
- I used to wake up feeling sore and achy. Now, I feel refreshed when I wake up.
- I used to plan my day around binges--thinking about what I would binge on later. Now, I plan my days around my runs--I make sure to get in 3 runs a week, whenever I can.
- I used to get embarrassed and try to hide when I would see an old friend while out and about. Now, I stop to chat with them.
- I never used to eat breakfast. Now, breakfast is my FAVORITE meal of the day (oatmeal!)
- When walking the half-marathon at my heaviest, I thought that everyone would look at me and say to him/herself, "Well, if SHE can do it, I certainly can!" At the 2010 half-marathon, I was passing up people that were MUCH thinner than me.
- I used to worry that I was an embarrassment to my family, because they are all thin. Now, I fit right in for the family pictures and I look like I belong.
- I used to avoid social situations because of how fat I was and how embarrassing it was for people to see me like that. Now, I love to wear a cute outfit and spend time with friends.
- I used to think my husband was a liar when he told me I was pretty. Now, I believe him.
- I'm not embarrassed to talk about how much I love certain foods anymore, even if it's a junk food. As a fat person, I thought it would be humiliating to say "I love cookies!" Now, I feel like it's okay to say that I love chocolate so much I would marry it if I could.
- When I was fat, Iused to wonder if every ache or pain in my chest was a heart attack. Now, I know that the odds are very unlikely that I'd be having a heart attack.
- My husband and I can lie next to each other on the couch now.
- When my husband and I take a shower together now, we can trade places without bumping up against the walls of the shower.
- My underwear doesn't look like a slipcover for an over-sized arm chair anymore. I can buy cute undies!
- I used to shower 2 or more times a day in the summer because I was worried that the sweating would make me smell bad. Just one shower is definitely enough now :)
- I used to feel invisible when at a store--nobody would really pay any attention to me. Now, as shallow as it is to say it's because of my weight, people look and smile and offer to help me.
- If I'm cold at a friend's house, I can ask to borrow a sweatshirt. In the past, I used to pretend I was comfortable just because I knew her shirt would never fit me.
- I don't have to take pictures at certain angles to get rid of my double chin... I simply don't have a double chin now!
- I feel worthy of saying, "I'm hungry" or "I'm starved!" When I was fat, it would have been almost like a joke to admit to being hungry at 253 pounds.
- My husband can wrap his arms around me far enough to touch his elbows.
- I never used to drink water. Now, I drink an entire quart first thing in the morning, and I get an additional quart or two throughout the day.
- I've set goals that I never would have thought possible when I was 253 pounds... like run a 5k, 10k, 15k, even a half-marathon. I truly believe that I can do those now.
- I've come to terms with the fact that I CAN'T "be like everyone else" when it comes to eating and drinking what I want, when I want. I'll have to do my own thing for the rest of my life, but I'm actually okay with that.
- I've really started to recognize signs of physical hunger (the not-so-obvious-as-my-tummy-growling kind of signs)--headache, empty feeling, crabbiness, weakness. I've learned that my stomach doesn't growl until long after I first get hungry.
- I truly ENJOY eating the foods I eat. I don't eat anything I don't like. In fact, I haven't eaten a single salad throughout my entire 99+ pound weight loss!
- I can fit my whole self into ONE LEG of jeans I wore just 10 months ago.
- The closer you get to your goal weight, the faster the clothes sizes drop.
- I've actually been hit on by men since losing the weight. That never happened when I was fat.
- Knitting is one of my passions, but I never wanted to make garments that I would wear--it takes a heck of a lot of yarn and a lot more time. Now that I can knit a size small or medium, knitting sweaters is definitely an option for me! And I did--I've made two sweaters so far.
- Numerous people have told me that I inspire them. That just blows my mind! I've never been "the success story" before.
- I used to have horrible insomnia, and I would toss and turn all night long. Now, I sleep soundly (provided my kids actually let me!)
- I've saved a LOT of money from eating at home. We used to eat out and order in very often, but now we never do. I truly enjoy home cooked food much more than restaurant food, and it's so much healthier.
- When I went to see the gynecologist for my annual pap smear, I asked her about a lump I felt just under my breast. She informed that it was my rib! lol
- I can see my knee bones now. Before, it was just a big round joint, and now it's angular.
- I can see the bones in my hands and feet, too.
- I actually FEEL feminine now. When I was 253 pounds, I felt like a sexless blob.
- Feeling feminine gives me the desire to style my hair, wear make-up, and wear cute clothes.
- Hell, I even wear cute pajamas now! No more of my husband's t-shirts.
- I make everything accommodate MY lifestyle now--if I'm going to a party and I don't think the food fits in with my plan, I simply don't eat it (I eat in advance). I don't let anyone make me feel guilty for doing what's best for ME.
- My blood pressure is now 90/60! I've never had HIGH blood pressure, but it was about 120/80.
- My resting heart rate is 50... it used to be 75.
- I can wear cheap jewelry now--the cute necklaces, rings, and bracelets actually fit.
- My hands used to go completely numb sometimes, especially when I was sleeping. That hasn't happened at all since I've lost the weight.
- I don't feel self-conscious about what is in my grocery cart anymore... because 95% of what I buy is healthy food!
- I feel really good about cooking dinner for my kids, because I know they are eating healthy. I make one meal for the whole family, I don't do a "diet" meal for myself and a "regular" meal for my family.
- I enjoy food even MORE now--sweet foods taste sweeter, spicy foods taste spicier, creamy foods taste creamier, etc. It's like I have brand new taste buds that are super sensitive (in a good way!)
- I used to get excited to go to events like weddings and parties because of the food. Now, I rarely even eat at the events, and instead I enjoy spending time with people.
- I rarely get cravings for any particular food anymore. And if I do, it's for something completely random (like an english muffin, or a really crisp apple, or oatmeal).
- I used to worry about getting sweat spots under my arms, and I would have to choose a shirt that wouldn't show the spots. Now, I only sweat while exercising.
- I used to not be able to fit into certain chairs, or it was a very tight squeeze (chairs with arms). Now, I usually have room on either side of me to spare.
- I used to love wearing oversized clothes in order to hide my body. Now, I only wear fitted clothes and I get rid of all clothes that are even a little bit big.
- I choose what to eat based on whether it's really worth the calories. At the beginning of my journey, eating a 100 calorie pack of cookies was no big deal, because I could eat a lot more calories. Now that I can eat a much smaller amount of calories, the 100 cal pack of cookies is a HORRIBLE deal. I would never waste 100 calories on something so small and not-tasty!
- I successfully gave up white flour for Lent. If you had told me just a year ago that I would do that, I would have laughed in your face. I enjoy whole grains a lot now!
- Once in a while, I have a dream that I binge like I used to, and it makes me feel horrible. When I wake up, I'm SO RELIEVED that it was just a dream!
- When I buy clothes, I can only plan on wearing it a couple of times before it's too big... so I shop at thrift stores and look for clearance items.
- My bowels are very "regular" now... and that's all I'm going to say about that ;)
- I've lost 4 inches in my neck... my NECK!
- My BMI category went from "morbidly obese" to "obese" to "overweight"... and now less than 10 pounds from being "normal".
- My thighs used to get chaffed from rubbing together. Now, they barely brush together when I walk.
- I used to be too self-conscious to wear shorts. I would suffer all summer long in jeans. As soon as the temp went up this year, I bought about 10 pairs of shorts.
- I went from a 24W down to a size 8 in just 10 months.
- I used to look at old pictures of me when I was thinner, and wish to look like that again. Or anywhere even close to that! However, now I am THINNER than I was in those pictures! It's a very strange feeling.
- I walked a half marathon at 253 pounds, and one year later, at 165 pounds. It was a MILLION times easier and SO MUCH MORE FUN the latter time.
- My alcohol tolerance is much lower, now. I used to be able to drink a 6-pack of beer and not feel a thing. Now, my limit is 1-2 drinks before I start to feel like it's too much.
- You know how when you get to a certain age, and someone asks how old you are, you have to stop and think for a minute? Well, I do the same thing with my weight. A lot of times, I still start off by saying, "Two--I mean, ONE hundred fifty-three pounds". It's going to take a while to get used to it.
- I actually enjoy drinking my coffee black and unsweetened now. I used to put about 1/4 cup of creamer in ONE cup of coffee! And not to even mention the amount of sugar...
- My treadmill is no longer a dust collector. I actually use it when I can't get outside to run.
- I used to "hoard" my WW points/calories for late in the day. I was always worried that if I use them now, I'll be STARVING later. Now, however, I use them when I'm hungry and in turn, I'm rarely hungry later in the day after using my calories. Also, I always used to think I had to save my "dessert" for a bedtime snack. Now, I eat my daily dessert whenever I feel like having something sweet!
- I've gotten more adventurous since losing the weight. Trying new things, going out more, meeting new people.
- When I sit down, my stomach doesn't rest on top of my thighs anymore.
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